Life as it is....

My last salary still not in yet. Saw my ex at SITEX last Sunday. Aunty try to matchmake me with her colleague. That's life for me. Hahahahahha...... Its amusing sometimes. Yet it is also painful like what happened last Sunday when i saw my ex. My heart skipped. She was just walking past me in the opposite direction. Yeah i think i still do love her. But i've moved on with my life. If i've never done that, i wouldn't have achieve what i've always wanted. Example playing rugby competitively. All thanks to N.S. If not for the Inter-Formation tournament, i wouldn't have been playing rugby nor getting on with my life.

Life as it is and will always be beautiful. The people that you come across along the journey will make a difference in your life, either its small or huge it still do make an impact in your life. That's one lesson that can't be taught in classrooms. Currently i'm still unemployed. Still looking around. So does anyone have any "lobangs" or know any vacancies for a job do let me know.
Till then.........

Cheers!

Damn It!!!!!!

Yeah damn it man! I've got a call and was told i was not needed for the job anymore. Fuck man! Just when i thought i was going to start working this coming monday they said i was not needed anymore. They say if i'm still interested in the job maybe January will have work. Damn! next time don't promise anything yet before confirming. I thought i will be a teaching assistant for the next 4 months but now i won't.....

Anyone have "lobang" or job openings for me????

I'm so happy.....

Yes i'm so happy. I just got my repeat module result. I passed!!!! I've got a C. It is way beyond what i expected. I thought i might have gotten a D for it. Hahahahaha...........Yes! I've graduated!!! Now my pay for the teaching assistant will be raise by $1... hehehehehe......
So sweeeetttttt............(pun intended) hahahahahahahaahaha...........

All this was just a false alarm.....

Oh well i guess all this was just a false alarm. I thought that this might be the one person who looks for me with love intentions, but i guess i was a fool to believe that it wasn't. I guess this is something i've learned that don't trust anyone unless you know them long enough. This event in my life really cause me deep heartache. Anyway i'm 50% to be blame because she lead me on to believe she was looking for love but her intentions i guess was to test the waters. She was loving someone else instead. Call her whatever names that you want, but i don't blame her 100%. 50% was my fault too. Eventhough i'm broken, but i'm optimistic enough to believe that maybe all this was just a test for me. God might want to see how strong i am in dealing with this situation. All this might have "hikmah" behind it. I'm glad its all over now.

So any single ladies out there want to get to know me? :D
Hahahahahahaahaha..........

I'm broken...

I don't know what you are trying to prove but i guess i might have seen you through your bluff. If you love "Robot" why must you say you are interested in me? And yet you said that you claimed that everything you said was from the bottom of your heart? Hehehehe........ how sweet your words can be. Thought i could be the one you share your emotional needs with. Hmmmm...... never knew those words can be so sweet yet is full of poison. If you had made it really clear to me that you loved someone else, i think i would not have fallen for you. I won't be jealous of you either. If you have made it clear you were attached currently then i would have not try to pursue you further. Yes you said you were not attached, but i guess you were lying through your teeth. Why must you do these to me? Leading me on to believe that you do really like me. If you can't make up your decision, how am i going to trust you? In every relationship, be it couplehood, or just normal friendship, trust is an important factor. And i think i know who you fought with. I'm just guessing that it is him also. And the person that you visited in Tan Tock Seng Hospital i guess might be him also? Hmmmm........... i don't want to be enemies with you. Even if you don't feel the same as i feel for you, i don't mind being just your normal friend. At least be honest to yourself and be truthful to others.

I think i know what you want. But it's not the same as what i want. If you love him go ahead. But if you do need me i'll always be here. All i ask is honesty from you. And be truthful. I want to be your friend. I don't bear grudge on you but i feel deeply hurt by your actions.

If you ever read this post by mistake, and you still want to be friends with me just message me. For i don't bear grudge on you...... And yes i really love you and actually care for you very much. But if we be friends i set aside those feelings so that the friendship can work...... Although i am sad, i won't force you to ever love me..... No matter what happens i want you to be happy.

Speechlessly wondering why......

The messages and the calls i've made were never answered. If you are mad at me please tell what did i do wrong. How i just wish i could read your mind but no i'm not a mind-reader. Please if you are angry with me, tell me. Tell me what's the reason that you are angry with.

*want to start afresh, all over again with you*