I'm being appreciated.....

Yes i'm being appreciated by someone. She's just like someone that just came out from the figment of my imagination. Its so surreal. Really!!! I've couldn't have wished for something more better than this. She misses me and i do feel the same about her. We talked about anything under the sun. I've never had someone who can just gives a smile to my face. I'm really happy right now. No matter what i hope this will last and i will try everything to make it last.

Cheers!

Am i dreaming???

It just happen, and i can't describe it. So suddenly that the person arrived in my life. All i can say is that it's so surreal and i'm feeling like i'm dreaming. Never expected someone i pictured in my imagination does exist. Maybe it takes awhile for it to happen. Now i'm just contented and happy.

Cheers

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Attributes of my future wife....

Yes that's right. I'm looking for someone hahahaaha..... No lah just a personal thought/opinion that suddenly came about awhile ago. And i feel like putting an entry about it. Well here goes :-

1. Must be able to understand me, understand my situation.
2. Must respect her elders, a family-oriented person.
3. Must not be too demanding nor too independent.
4. Must look pleasant to my eyes. ( heheheheehehehe)
5. Must know how to make herself pretty after we get married.
6. Must have the same kind of passion in relationship like i do.
7. She must not be a high-maintenance person. Must be practical and thrifty.
8. Must be a romantic, spontaneous person.
9. Able to continue the romance after we marry.
10. Is the nurturing, motherly type.
11. A patient and caring person.
12. Able to cook (No really a major requirement though, heheheheheehehe)
13. A quite homely type but not too homely.
14. Adventurous.
15. Have great sense of humour.
16. Intelligent ( no "minah" types )

Well..... that's for now. May have more in future though but not until more than 20 i guess hahaahahaa..........

I'm feeling down....

I failed my bar test. Shit!, Dammit! Fucking hell!!!!! I just feel so down and i don't want to talk about it at all. Peace

Life and its challenges....

Well i've known someone quite recently and i was told of her problems. She's currently having financial problem because her ex-fiancee used her IC to get a handphone line subscription and then owed the telco lots of money. What a bastard man! You bring shame to my kind! And now he disappeared and left her and never even pay back her money. So now she is in dilemma of how to settle the bills. She even thought of being a hostess at a bar for a few days. When i heard what she told me, i scolded her for being to narrow in thinking. There are other options besides selling your self. A note for girls:- Please when in desperate need DO NOT SELL OFF YOURSELF WORTH!!!! Its really bad. I don't like the idea. These are just life's challenges given to us by HIM. Do not be disheartened and be discouraged and try to force yourself on to something which is not good. I had this kind of encounter before. It was with my ex-girlfriend. She wanted to earn money very fast and suggested that working as a hostess in a bar. I told her off and scolded her for being too stupid! Why are people so damn desperate to make millions and never care about their loved ones? It's hard to explain but i guess that money is really the root to all evil.

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I was doing closing today and i received a phonecall on my mobile. It's the teacher. Whoa she said she miss me. Hahahahahaa.........feeling a little bit bliss. The reason she gave me was she find it is nice talking to me. WTF!!! I always got this kind of reaction to some of the girls i met and after we chatted on the phone. I can't figure out why. I don't flirt with them neither am i speaking with them in a voice that will melt a thousand hearts. I was just being my normal self. It's funny. Oh well maybe she do like me, although we have not met in person but we've seen each other's photo's on Friendster. But i'm not jumping to conclusion YET!. Been hurt quite a few times, been lied to a lot of times, been fooled by girls numerous times that i find this incident quite amusing to me. Oh well........it's life. Well see after we meet each other face to face. If there's sparks flying and we are able to "click" then might as well get to know more of her.

For now peeps lets just end here. Oh BTW i've yet to take my bar test although now i'm feeling confident. Must tell my manager that. I guess he must have forgotten about it. What an "old" man.

Cheers!!

Fetish...

I don't why the title but there seems to be "teacher fetish" virus going around these days hahahaahahah....... A friend's blog entry was regarding a cute male primary school teacher. It just makes me ponder about my case. I've also been acquainted with teachers in fact hahahaahahah...... and there are a few still in contact with. An ex-primary schoolmate/classmate of mine, a pre-school teacher whom i likened before, a NIE trainee teacher/chat friend, and recently got to know a primary school teacher who is also Singapore Idol Taufik's ex-schoolmate/classmate. What a small island Singapore is..... And this teacher..... whoa!, guys if look at her pictures, you'll be salivating, maybe or maybe not. Depends on what other fetishes you besides "teacher fetish" heheheheeh........... But she have a cute voice and i like the sound of her voice hahahahaahahaa..... No i'm not falling in love yet. Not so soon though. I'm caught up with work. Even if someone like me in the near future, i will tell if you love you just have to wait till i'm stable enough. I have house loan to pay... well actually help my father to pay.

Ok let's side track to personal part of mine. Yesterday which was 08 Febuary '06 i was working closing and there was this particular someone from my past about 3 years ago came to the store. Well in fact to tell you the truth she was my ex. Ok the story is i got to know her on IRC and after awhile ask her to my steady. I was stupid then and turned out she's ugly. I'm sorry to say this but this is actually an actual fact. My partners saw her with her group of friends today and say she looked like a guy. I'm not being judgemental but its true. No offence if ugly people read this but i know i'm ugly also. Ok back to the story. And the thing is she is the "minah" type which i ain't accustomed to. I hate "minahs" and "mats". And the best part is she went to ask my shift manager about me. I was damn shocked!! Flabbergasted.... What the hell?? Hahaahaha so i tell them the story of what happened. And my shift manager said that she should get a life. Hahahahah which is true. I think she might have still kept my picture inside of her wallet. I'm moved on and so should you. Please don't ever harrass me in my store!!!!! It may sound cruel but that's how i've felt. I felt cheated actually. Really.... She told me she have this "perfect figure" blah blah blah. And i was stupid and be steady with her without even meeting her first. I'm an arsehole, yeah i know. If you people want to curse me please do! I know i am. After meeting her i was shocked. But being a gentleman i still go ahead with her for about a few days then i forgotten what happened and just vanished. That's all folks hahahaha....seriously!

Ok that's about it. My story just get longer if i tell you the whole picture. For now i'm enjoying my singlehood unless someone is really interested in me and can drive me to go on a diet, then i will love her!!!!! :D .............................................auf wiedersehn

Bar test postponed...

Yeah, was supposed to have it yesterday but my SM said i'm not ready yet. Why? Because when i was doing POS my beverage calling still not there yet. Although i've been practising quite awhile i sometimes get mixed up. I guess i'm getting "old", keep forgetting stuffs. What shit! Oh well i think i need a brain booster or something. Hahahahaaha....... Ok i'm going to work now. Doing closing again. Very tiring. At least opening is much better and i can have longer rest. That's how i feel.

Oh well till next time then........ Ciao!

The "God is back"

Ok this is no reference to God but to Robbie Fowler. He's back in Anfield, one of my favourite Liverpool legends. Yes, Rafa Benitez have made an important decision of signing him on a free transfer. I was glad to see him back. A prolific scorer. Although i also wanted to see Michael Owen back into the current Red's lineup, this signing is second best. I'm so happy to see my favourite soccer team progressing and it's very emotional to me. Given a chance, i want to be watching their home match at Anfield. Well maybe that dream might come true, who knows?

On the homefront, my barista training is picking up. Althought beverage calling and recipes kind of rusty, i had a whole day to the espresso bar yesterday. It was great and i also can train on my recipes, beverage calling and cup marking. Yesterday doing closing and to day too. But currently now i'm feeling sick. I've been having diarrhoea morning and it hasn't stop. I still have a few more modules to cover and now i'm sick. Should i report sick and get an MC or should i just come down for work and try to endure? Oh man, i hate being sick. It makes me feel very weak.

Ok that's all for today's post...... Peace.
(P/S: Wish me luck for this job and my bar test.)