Well....

Well... suppose to blog on Sunday but i was too tired. Well here goes......

Sunday 27th March

Went to my army buddy's wedding. Missed him cause he already went to the wife's side. Guess who is saw at the wedding. My cousin from my father's side. Turns out that my army buddy is my cousin's husband's nephew. Then saw my aunt chatted with her for awhile before went back.
At night i went to catch the movie "Hitch" alone. Had great fun though eventhough i was by myself. Used to being solo. The show was funny. Had a great laugh. And the show really showed me something, that an average guy can get a hot babe as a significant other. All you have to is be attentive to her. Hahahahaha how i wish my life turns out like in the movies, getting the girl that of my dreams as my significant other. Well God knows maybe i will.

Monday 28th March

Went to school after a week's break. Had CDP in the morning. Suppose to present about our group work but i was absent the week before the one week break due to high fever. But due to some circumstances ours was postponed to next week so therefore i can get myself a little more prepared this time. After that had S&W. An ex-teacher of mine came down during our S&W lesson to inform us about the class being postponed. She said our teacher is on MC and we can go back after S&W. That is good news for me. Went back after S&W and suppose to go out again to buy some batteries and super glue but i ended up falling asleep. Luckily my mum woke me up in time for my Stardom meeting. If not i would've missed it.

Well that was all.. Cheers

*every day as i awake from my slumber, thoughts of running in my head. Wandering why i have fallen for you. Well i guess you have known it, but it never really the way i intended to happen. What i actually wanted was to tell you with my own " i love you " not by messaging you. But then i never really had the courage to do so. I was afraid. But i guess that is just my own feelings. I respect your decision. We'll just be friends. Yeah. But i do would like to go out with you some time and try to get to know you better. Well its a promise i will keep since i already asked you about going out with me. One day i will try and make it happen. Do take care of yourself.*

Well....

Well, well, well, suppose to blog on Sunday night but i was too tired then. Well anyway here's what happened.

Sunday 27th March

Went to my army buddy's wedding. Didn't get to see him though cause he already left for the bride's side. But guess who did i saw? My cousin on my father's side. It turns out to be that my army buddy is my cousin's husband's nephew. Hahahahaha...... Saw my aunt. Then went back after chatting with her for awhile. At night went to catch "Hitch" at Tampines Mall GV cineplex. Damn! the show was damn funny. I was watching it solo but i had a great time. I laugh out loud at the craziness of the character. The show showed me something. It showed that average guys can really get hot babes as the significant other. Really meaningful though. Went back around 11 plus and went to bed.

Monday 28th March

Went to school in the morning. Had Career Development Principles module or CDP for short. We had one week break and before the one week break i fell ill and didn't know what was going on today. Actually was suppose to present our group project but then due some circumstances were unable. Had Sports & Wellness after that. During S&W an ex-teacher of mine came and inform the class that the next class will be cancelled. That was a great news because i can get back early and have lunch at home. Went back home but before going home straight i went window-shopping for awhile around Bedok Interchange area. Went back and suppose to go to buy some batteries and super glue but ended up falling asleep. Woken by my mum cause she asked me what time i was suppose to go for Stardom meeting. Luckily she woke me up if not i won't be able to make it.

Well that's all for now......... Hitch is a great movie. How i wish my life will turn up like the movie. Get the girl that i love. Well..... maybe i will. God knows. Anyway cheers to ya'll.

*everytime i wake up from my slumber, the thoughts of you running on my mind. Each time i wanted to say those words to you, " i love you" it feels hard. I guess you know about it but i think right now you aren't looking for love at the moment. So i guess we just be friends for now. I still would like to go out with you one day. I'm keeping it as a promise. One of these days i will ask you out.*

Lazy Saturday

Today had Stardom rehearsal in the morning. I thought today we had something to do but just sit around and watched the finalist did their opening thingy. Ended at 1pm, then went to have lunch at Food Culture at Century Square. After that i went back home while the rest stayed and chill somewhere in Tampines. On the bus fell asleep. Luckily got off at interchange. Went home then fell asleep. Woke up, went online and start typing this shit hahahahahaa.......... Well tomorrow had a wedding reception to attend. My army buddy is getting married... Aaaarrrggghh..........seeing one by one of my friends getting hitch. Feel so old man! And furthurmore i intend to purse diploma after ITE. Well if i ever get a place in Poly, by the time i graduate i will be like..... 27??? hahahahahaha so old...... Will be the "abang" or "brother" in malay for those who didn't know, to my future classmates hahahahahaa..... I think that's all the blabbering for today peeps. Cheers

*each single day as i wander out, my thoughts linger to the place in my heart. The place that i had placed you inside, etched inside of me. The very thoughts of you brings me to a smile. I just wish that i am courageous enough to ask you out*

Call me crazy....if you want

How should i begin??? For the past few days i've been having this feelings....... it was as if i was drowning in the big ocean and struggling to stay afloat. Well actually i was feeling breathless most of the time at night. It was as what i had pictured it earlier. Like i was struggling to keep myself afloat and trying to survive. I don't know why but i guess it might be due to i'm in stress. That how i guess but i'm not sure..........

Well today had my Student Council Investiture rehearsals...went through the walkthrough of the show. Well that's all actually. What i heard is that i'm involved in the item that we are going to present. But i never went for the rehearsal last Saturday due to the high fever that i caught. I'm guessing that my part will be something unique hahahahaah...... you guys what have you up your sleeves???

Well...... how should i say this???? Well..... what i wanted to say is that.....how should i put it?? ok here goes.... i think i'm have fallen in love..... Well you know who you are... all i wanted to do is just ask her out, as a friend but i can't think of anywhere to go. To the movies and dinner? Its too common... well you all bloggers out there care to give some pointers or maybe an opinion what should i do???

*la tristessa durera........ the sadness will remains*

sickly me....

Well its been awhile since i last blog. I've lots of things to think about. Ok let me start from friday.............

11th March 2005, Friday:

I woke up and felt kinda sick. today was suppose to be assisting kamar for the stardom dance auditions. i was assigned as the photographer for the day. hiaz..... sick then must be photographer and somemore sit inside the auditorium which temperature was fucking cold. Feizel came and suddenly i realised i forgot the software that i burned for him. So i told him i go back and bring it. Went home took the cd then i packed some nasi lemak and went back to school. Came back all the contestants were there. And i'm getting more sick. Too bad, so i endure the first half of the auditions. Second half i told kamar i'm falling out coz i'm coming down with fever. So he asked around who can replaced me.. and peah was there so she volunteered. Do you guys want to know what happen?? hahahahahaha let's just say when you don't know anything don't be a smart aleck. The auditions finished early, thank God. But after auditions i never went back straight. Went out with my friends coz they wanted to have their dinner. I never ate due to loss of appetite. Went back around near to midnight. Check the temperature and guess what? It's 38.3 degrees celsius. I never thought it is that high. Took medication and fell into slumber....

12th March 2005

Was suppose to wake up early and go to school for investiture drama rehearsal, but then i can't wake up coz still having fever. Damn..... Then woke up around 10 plus and watch cartoons. Till around 2 i bathe and prepare myself for religious class. Well suppose to wait for Adi at Bedok bus interchange but he came late. And we were late for our class. Reach class around 5 and the particular module finished. Class was in aircon room and then i came down with fever again. damn....... feeling feverish. And furthurmore i was suppose to meet my mum at Tampines coz my aunt booked a place at Fish & Co. coz my cousin, actually two of my cousin are celebrating birthdays. I came down, was feverish, went to Watson's and bought FEBs. Its a medication for cold. Took it and awhile later i started to persipire. Which is good coz i'm getting well from fever. Ordered fish & chips. Nice..... and i felt full. Went back with my mum and then check my temperature it is 37.8 degrees celcius. Had cough and phelgm was stuck inside my throat. So uneasy. well i'm off to rest now.... Cheers.

*picture of you etched in my heart, i guess i'm falling in love with you*

life passes by....

Life passes by me every single day reminding me that i'm getting older as the days go by. One by one my friends are getting hitched. A few more to come soon. I'll be getting invitation cards for weddings from my friends. People ask me when is my turn? How should answer? well.... i tell them straight. I don't have any girlfriends yet and it might not be soon. What to do i'm the eldest and yet i'm still schooling. My only sister(younger) is already engaged and is going to be married next year. I'm always wondering who will be my future wife-to-be. Will she be faithful, fillial to her parents and mine?, will she be caring, understanding towards me?. I'll just let God decide it for me. I think i might have found a choice but i reckon she don't feel the same way. Well.... i'll just go with the flow. If it happens, it happens. Too bad that last time i really loved someone so badly and she left me. It was heartbreaking experience for me. I was devastated. Trying to get over her, i ended up with rebound relationships until last year that i finally stop having it and totally gotten over her. Those memories were bittersweet. Eventhough i have gotten over, memories of her still lingers inside my head. Those times when we hugged each other, the jokes that were told, the laughter that we shared, it still lingers in my head. But i can't delete it from my own memories. It is etched in me. But thank God i've gotten over her. Now all i hope is that one day i'll meet the special someone. And i'll love her till there's no tomorrow. And that is a promise to myself.

*sentimental moments comes again, lingering inside of my head. The bittersweet memories last for a lifetime*

feeling......?

I'm feeling i'm getting older as the days go by. Somehow i look back at my past lives and wished that some of it i never went through. Those were times, the mistakes that we make in our past chapters, the hearts that i broke or those that broke mine. Those were the times. Now living life as it is, i'm just sailing through life's current wind. Never expecting anything in return. All i want is self satisfaction in whatever i am doing. As for friends, i love you all. You were there from the time i'm in my sorrowest period and always stick through with me. You were there when i'm happy, when i'm sick. When i ever leave this earth, i'll bring my memories with me to my grave. And to those that i love, i really love you sincerely. Not because you're pretty, fat, ugly, or thin, but because i sincerely am. And sorry to those whom i have wronged. I'm not perfect and i can't be perfect. I am me and i have flaws. I am human after all.

love all, peace and out.

Whew!

Whoa! today was the vocal group auditions for Stardom. Well i think today i did something to someone, maybe the way i approach that person is quite harsh. Well i'm really sorry to have offended you, you know who you are.
After that we had dinner at tampines century square at one of the foodcourts. Btw the auditions ended early today, earlier than i expected. Had fun though. Srinie and jalil came down to watch the auditions. Had dinner with them, reen, ida, and the rest of the gang! hahahaha. Aiyah i'm just too lazy to name everyone. I think that's it for today. Cheers