I don't know what else to do.....

I'm running out of ideas, thoughts etc. All i'm feeling now is how to end my life... She wanted to sue me or shall i say her uncle wanted to sue me for saying things about her aunt and her intentions to get a tattoo. I was angry at that point of time. And furthurmore i don't know what she wants. A lil bit of misunderstanding can blow up till it involves family members. What the fuck???? Rather than you sue me, might as well put the money to good use by clearing your fucking debts. I'm to blame for your depression? Your depression was caused by your own stress. I don't know where your doctor got the idea i caused your depression. I have friends who had depression before. I just don't know what you want. I think you are doing this because you can't get back to your ex-fiancee who used your i.c for his own purpose, choking up debts using your name and then fuck with your "best friend" and then left you. You know what? i do still care about you! If you want me to stop caring i can do that. You know what i just can't be bothered anymore. I fucking stressed. And i think the one who is going through a depression is me! I can just fucking punched your uncle, your brother, your father or whoever stands in my way. I DON'T FUCKING CARE!!!!! I RATHER GO TO JAIL BECAUSE I PUNCHED THEM THAN GO TO JAIL BECAUSE OF SOME STUPID COMMENTS I MADE ABOUT YOUR AUNT!!!!! WHY DON'T SETTLE IT MANO E MANO??? FUCKING SCARED THAT YOU SHIT IN YOUR PANTS?????? HEY I RATHER YOUR BROTHER PUNCHED ME BITCH!!!!!!!!!!

FUCKING HELL.........YOU FUCKING RICH PEOPLE HAVE NOTHING BETTER TO DO BUT SUE WE COMMONFOLKS. HEARTLESS SHITS....... INSTEAD OF SUING ME WHY DON'T YOU PUT YOUR MONEY TO GOOD USE INSTEAD? LIKE DONATE IT TO SOME NEEDY FOUNDATION OR BETTER STILL HELP YOUR STUPID NIECE WHO'S HAVING DEBTS TO CLEAR...... SHITHEADS................YOU WASTE MONEY ON FREAKING LAWYERS WHO CHARGE YOU A BOMB FOR THEIR FREAKING SERVICES. MONEY EQUALS POWER TO YOU RICH BASTARDS!!!! HEARTLESS FREAKS...... I'LL GET A PPO AGAINST YOU ALL. YOU THINK YOU ARE ABOVE THE FUCKING LAW??? PUHLEAASSEE....CAN'T A SIMPLE SORRY WORK FOR YOU GUYS??? FUCKING SHITHEADS RICH BASTARDS!!!!!! YOU MAKE TOO MUCH MONEY AND DON'T KNOW WHERE ELSE TO SPEND ON.............SO THE ONLY ENTERTAINMENT FOR YOU GUYS ARE JUST GOLF AND SUING PEOPLE??

Haiz......... why is this shit happening to me? Regretted knowing you. I should have not helped you the first time. I should have not known you at all. You gave me misery and yet i'm to blame for my insecurities towards you?? Just my fucking luck............... I rather die.... I RATHER DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't know who can help me now..... not even my friends. If the the suing really happens and i have a letter given to me by their representative i think i want to end my life. Friends you can't help me anymore. This shit is getting worse. Death is better. I rather be in hell for my sins in this life than suffer in this life for some shits that are so petty...... I don't earn much..... I'm so useless. I neglect my responsibility towards my family just because i want to help her. And in return she wants to sue me. Haiz.... life is so meaningless now for me. Crying never helps, taking painkillers never help, talking to friends never help, trying to talk things out never help, scarring myself never help. All i get is this shit about people who wants to sue me.
I don't know where else to turn to now.............IT HURTS REALLY BAD INSIDE!!!!!!!