Wondering.....

Oh well last Saturday wanted to blog but had other plans. Well last Saturday was the season finale for NRC Division 1. We lost again though. Well better luck next year then guys. For now lets bond!

Well, last Saturday also i feel kinda down. It was all due to what's going on in my mind. I felt that she's like taking me for granted. When she wants to talk to me she calls or smses me, when not she just kept quiet. And also because she says i asked a lot of questions. Well hearing that i made up my mind not to message her on Saturday. I thought she will at least message me once. I went for my match as usual and after the match i checked my handphone if there is any messages or missed calls. None! So i went back home after breaking my fast at Mac-Dees at Turf City. I went back i saw her online. So i changed my "Appear Offline" setting to "Online" on the MSN. When she saw me, she messaged me, asking why "disappear". I replied that i never "disappear". And she asked me was i at home all the while and i answered no. Then in my mind flashed all those thoughts i had about her taking me for granted. Ok cut the story short i asked her if all those words she said to me was true. And the truth prevails. She said yes and actually she woke up that day and looked at her handphone hoping that i messaged her or leave her any missed calls because she was hoping i'll asked her out that day. And she felt disappointed. And so after i asked her those questions she was frustrated with yours truly.

Hmmm....... i guess i might thinking too much about this. Maybe i need to slow things down a lil. Yeah maybe perhaps, she might have feelings for me. Well God knows what her feelings were. Oh boy! i think let fate decides.

*is she for real or is this just a figment of my imagination fabricated by my lonely mind?*