I'm having problems of my own

Yes i'm having problems. It's regarding work. I'm struggling now to call out the beverage in standard order and also problem of trying to remember the recipes of the drinks. Although in my mind i get the picture, when it comes to the real thing i feel i'm not yet ready for it. I'm already feeling lost. Haven't try i've already want to admit defeat. These negative vibes i'm having is going to kill me. I don't like it. I'm just left with a few more modules but i'm already feeling the jitters, nervous and such that are negative. Anyone out there can help me remember those bloody recipes and help me out in calling out of the beverage? I'll be bloody glad if u can help me. Next week is my bar test and tomorrow is my espresso class. So many things to memorise. How can i cram all those information to my head? Aaarrrggghhh i'm feeling like having a breakdown. Never knew that the steps of becoming a barista can be this challenging..........


I don't want to give up. I want to face this challenge. But who will help me in being a pillar in case i fall down? Please anyone coach me and support me. I feel awkward....